im dying...jus kill me..im better off dead...

numb my feelings please...i beg you...it hurts so much right now...

it won't be the same....

two hearts standing strong as one...braving thru all odds and obstacles...

whoa..misss onlining...

POC....em...nice...it was kinda grand...wore no.1 u...had the presentation of cert...then the donning of rank...whoa nicely done...aft tt had the pledge taking..was the one who lead the pledge..a lil scary...was wif emily maam at the back..haha.she said jia you...took alot of pictures with evrybody...especially squad alpha...=))

went back to classroom..had our last squad debrief..so many things to look back on..so many memories of this J06...

tt day was also our 2 mths...nothing much...gave him a bottle half filled with saga seeds...took bus home...all tired and worn out...

tmr's a big big day!

the day where we have been waiting for...the last day where J06 is gg to be tgt as one...

whohoos..Passing Out Ceremony! will be number one-u! yeahs yeahs...gonna take lots and lots of photos..

tmr's also our 2 mths...23rd June...yeap...so much as happen..

wad'll happen tmr...i dunno..im scared...both of our parents will be attending the POC...wad if..they're bound to talk to one another..argh..hai hai hai...im scared...cld only pray for a smooth and sailing meeting...

too many chances given...it's up to you whether u wanna cherish and treasure it...

too much tears shed for u...don make all my tears go down to the drain...

too much promises made...i hope promises are not meant to be broken for i'll always stand by what i say...

too much heart put in...i need u to take my heart but pls don break it for broken hearts has no spare parts...

too much trust...i trust u over over and over again...don make me lose trust in u...

too much words...so much words u've said to me...but action proves louder than words...

too many sacrifices...i will do jus for you...

i dunno wat's wrong wif u this 2 days..i really dunno...

im so numbed by yr doiings...wad more can i say or do...u left me speechless by wad u've said...is this wad u really wan deep inside yr heart?...i feel like screamin and tearing my heart now...it's bleeding profusely...promises are meant to be broken huh? i guess so...so much for my heart,soul and trust...i stood by my promise while u kept breaking dem...is this wad u really want? i dunno wad to do wad to say...

u left me broken jus like that...


Yue ying: thx gal for evrything that you've done...sorry for not being there when u neede someone...sorry for all the things i've done wrong...sorry...once PTE forever PTE

Mei dan: wad can i say...5 yrs of friendship,squadmates,hse mates...we thru thick and thin tgt...thru so much quarrels and cold wars...haha..gal jus call me foolish...scold me...i love u...

i dunno wat's wrong wif u this 2 days..i really dunno...

im so numbed by yr doiings...wad more can i say or do...u left me speechless by wad u've said...is this wad u really wan deep inside yr heart?...i feel like screamin and tearing my heart now...it's bleeding profusely...promises are meant to be broken huh? i guess so...so much for my heart,soul and trust...i stood by my promise while u kept breaking dem...is this wad u really want? i dunno wad to do wad to say...

u left me broken jus like that...

yeahs..it has been so long since i come online and blog...soOOo many many many many things...will eleborate more on a ltr date...

jus highlight the things tt happen for the past few days...

10-13 june: ATC
14 june: collection of no.1 u
15 june: bdae wif dear at zoo =))
16 june: wearing formally wif dear
17 june: jogging wif dear from punggol to punggol park
dinner wif family at sakura
23 june: passing out ceremony and 2 mths ani...


till then...
take care to all...

hai hai...tmr's ATC le...will only be back on tuesday...huw am i gonna survive the 4 days 3 nights...dear's diff grp...it'll be so near yet so far...hai hai...haha still cld rmb cadet time...atc means...

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lols...cant believe time passes so fast...tmr's gonna be 10th June...June...so fast so fast...hmmmss...sudden depression now...jus felt tt everything's gonna go wrong...

whehehes...im gonna fling flang flang my maths...god bless me...spent the last 40 mins day dreaming...gave up on the paper...hopeless...

tmr's HAP...gonna study extra hard...mus excel in this sub..hehhehs...

currently in NYP lib...using jor's labtop...studying while waiting for him...arh...hungry hungry hungry...2 hours and 15 mins more to go...

woke up this morning...was suppose to meet jor in the morning de...in the end...haha.sleep is more impt =)) found out tt both of us actually made egg mayo as breakfast for each other today...hahHahaha...so sweet...

ATc's this sat...huw am i gonna survive....argh argh...

...part time depression...PIPC was hard today...it's a sure fail thing...hai hai..wad mus i do..wad can i do...study hard...study study study...

sat's trng

it was one of the best trng...hmmss...had lots of lectures...so tired so slpy...spent most of the time with jor...had alot of fun times with alpha...hai.....

ATC's this coming sat...4 days 3 nights...wonder huw am i gg to survive...wad will happen aft this 4 days...im really scared...very very scared...dunaskmewhy...im jus scared...

slept at 3 plus yst night...din really study...read thru my yearbook and SPO...so many memories..


cantlivewithoutyou

stupid stupid! this my 3rd time retyping...forget it!! humph humph..all comp @$!#%%%$#%$$...humph humph...argh

all comps are retarded...humph...

stupid

carmen.

hey. what have you done to your previous blog! your links are gone. haha. so now you've got to be punished. 3/4 of your links are copied and pasted from my blog. too lazy to relink everyone close to you. however, in addition, your squadmates' links are also up. be honoured okay. (:

p.t.e.